I want a job!!

I really want a job.
Be it in a hotel, as a guide (in Sweden or abroad), a hostess, in a clothingshop, a bookstore or a travel agency, I don't care, I just want a job!

I'm not saying I'm desperate, because obviously that's quite apparent by the way I'm always going on about it, but I really really really want one!

Why should it be so fucking hard to land a fucking job?!

I want a job so I can pay my bills, for my apartment, buy food, the Merlin dvd's, the Supernatural seasons, a new bigger TV (because my TV is so miniscule it's hard to see what's happening),  a media table, new winter/autumn shoes, a new winter coat, and a trip to Japan this summer/spring with some buddies. I really want the money so that I can go on vacation to Japan, to finally get there!!

Kamisama, Daimousama! てつだってくれておねがいします！

A mess

So yesterday my cellphone turned itself off and I was so sure that I knew the code.
Well, I was wrong.
Two times did I write the wrong code, and then I turned my cellphone off because I panicked.
I was sure I had the code somewhere near, wich I usually do, it's always in the same place.
Well, it wasn't.
I started at 12 in the afternoon to search for that goddamned thing, turned my entire apartment upside down, I went through every single thing I had.
And then I find it in the last place I looked, 12 hours later.
That is so fucking typical my luck.
You know, it's shit like that that's messing with my zen.

Anyhoo, I discovered a new band I like: they're called Hollywood Undead, their album American Tragedy is fucking awesome. One of the singers kind of sound like Chester from Linkin Park sometimes, screams not withstanding.
I do like new music (well, that's new to me anyways ^_~)

So I was thinking to get my zen on, once I've cleaned up all this shit that I discovered needed sorting through and organizing, and when I've washed all my clothes, I'll start meditating.
I'm looking forward going to the gym again and starting working that ass off.
I went two days ago, it was fucking great, no ppl in there because it was all sunny and nice outside.
Finally used my sunglasses for the first time this summer. Typical of me that I use them on like the last day of summer too.

I love this song I Don't Wanna Die (by Hollywood Undead) I'm listening to it now.
Finally Spotify is good for something. Yes peoplez, I've joined the Spotify crowd.
I'm such a sheep.

A Little Lost

Will this never end?
I thought a while ago that I knew what I wanted, that I knew where I was headed and that I would sacrifice practically everything to get there.
But lately I'm not so sure.
Then again it could be the impending soon-to-be unemployed again depression that's getting to me.
I'm not sure exactly what to do and how to do it if I ever make up my mind.
Thing is, I want to go to Tokyo to study for 6 months up to a year...preferrably a year...BUT I'm not sure if I'm willing to take any more loans to get there. Thing is, I have to have a whoooole lot of money to even get there and setting up living expenses, tuitions and stuff and then there's taxes and travel fees and if I am to save up for all of this, I won't be able to go until I've worked for 4 years.
And I want to go NOW! T__T

I do feel a bit lost. But my intuition is telling me I should probably try to get a job in my own country first, so that I have experience in the field, before I start heading out for another country.
So now, all I need is a job I guess.
Anyone got a job for me out there?? I'm eager and willing to work hard and earn some money!



...If I was rich, I wouldn't be having this problem...I would just go anywhere I like, follow my every whim, go where my heart takes me...